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FortyGirl…that’s me! This blog is about a Christian wife, mother and educator who is working on being a better person. This is my very own personal self-improvement journey! I will share my successes, situations (so much better than saying challenges), and any other funny or serious issues that will come up along the way. I am an educator who absolutely believes we MUST be life-long learners…that is what keeps us young! So, the journey begins…here we go….

What Do You Mean I Am Just a Human?

This week was the week I found out that I am a just (sigh)…a human. If you have read some of my recent blog posts you already know I wrote about a surgery that I recently had. The surgery was a complete hysterectomy, ovaries and all. Needless to say, pretty major on the list of surgeries. The recovery period is 6-8 weeks and that is just the overall physical healing part. That does not include the stamina recovery and hormone balancing aspect. They say it is months before you truly feel like yourself. Which brings me to the profound truth that has recently come to me…

I was told when I had my surgery that there were restrictions…no lifting of anything as heavy as a gallon of milk, no pushing and pulling, lots of rest, limited work, if any, you get the picture. Well, how do I word this…I pushed myself thinking…”I am a superhuman!”…I guess in my mind I was (drums play)…”Super Forty-girl”!!!

Then last week, I feel a little pain, it continues over the next couple of days, and by Saturday night I am miserable! I immediately panic because no matter what I do I cannot get rid of the pain and discomfort. My mind races…blockage? Complication? What is going on? Needless to say, I ended up in the ER. The minute I stated to the doctor that I had surgery as recent as four weeks ago, I knew I was in for the long haul. This was not going to be a simple evaluate and discharge. Now, I am an educator, and I am sitting in the ER the night before the first day of school. Now, not only was it the first day of school for my school, but for my son as he starts First grade, so…emotions set in as I was told I was being admitted. The more frustrating part was that I put myself here. I pushed and pushed myself working to get ready for the school year, did not get enough rest after the first couple of weeks, because I began to feel better. I did not eat a bland diet…so, yes, I am responsible. Goodness, is that hard to admit!

As the doctors came in to visit me, and the tests were run, the message I was being given was one I simply could not process…what do you mean I can’t do it all? What do you mean I need more rest? What do you mean I can’t work ten hour days yet? What to you mean I can’t eat just whatever I want? What! I can’t leap tall buildings in a single-bound? You can’t be serious? UMMMM…they were serious! I also found out that I don’t control anything…God is always in control, and in this situation my body had a big say in the situation as well. My body was telling me “I need a break, a rest, a chance to fully heal, and you are pushing it”. I got the message…I am not superhuman (long sigh).

As I laid in my hospital bed and pondered my situation, I realized that my health, your health, is so valuable. To not take care of our body is simply put…dumb. I also realized that not taking care of ourselves does not just impact us. It impacts those around us. My family was worried, my son especially did not like visiting his mommy in a hospital. My husband and parents worried, and lectured me I might add. The folks at my school were concerned, and stated “we need you, so you better take care of yourself!”. I realized I impact a lot of people; therefore, I needed to take care of me, not just for me, but for the people around me. Does that make sense? I also realized that yes, I am a human, and humans need rest, nutrition, and as much as we don’t like it…to follow doctor’s orders. I am listening from here on out.  So, my message to you is to take care of yourself, because YOU matter to so many! YOU matter to more people than you even know. Oh, and by the way, you are not superhuman either! Does that surprise you? It sure surprised me!

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Social Media…blessing and a curse?

Now, I am not unaware of the irony of my title considering I am writing a blog that I will tweet out soon, thus using social media. That being said, social media has been a super resource for me professionally. I love utilizing Twitter to connect with people all over the world. I obtain some great information and ideas through my connections on Twitter. Pinterest has given me some great DIY projects for my home, and ideas for my son’s birthday party. Facebook has allowed be to reconnect with friends I have not seen or heard from in years. I love seeing how my high school friend’s children have grown, and what my college friends are up to. I find social media to be so positive!

The flip side of that is, some people truly believe that social media is a forum for their therapy.They express everything and anything on social media thinking there should not ever be consequences. I am amazed at people who post on a social media site, which is public, but then are surprised when everyone “knows their business”, really? I have even had people say that they are entitled to freedom of speech. Well, that is true, we all have freedom of speech; however, freedom of speech does not mean without consequences.

I also wonder about the people who must post their every waking thought or movement on social media. Are people really interested in your date night, or the latest batch of cookies someone made, or the song lyrics going through someone’s head, and on and on. Truly, if you are on a date night with your spouse, maybe turning off the phone and spending the date night with them would be better. I imagine it would be appreciated by their date!

Again, social media has so many positives, it is the use of social media by some, or maybe not just some, that leaves me scratching my head. As I think about it, maybe it isn’t what is being said, but who people are “friends” with? I am pretty selective about who I am “friends” with, and definitely careful and cautious about what I post. I am always aware of my profession, and the perception of what I say, and how that can be perceived. Who we socialize with and the comments we make are forever out in social media space. They can even keep us from advancing, getting a new position or job, and can affect personal relationships and professional ones. I guess, with everything, one must consider the consequences, and truly be responsible in all of their actions, social media included. Oh, one last thing…selfies in a bathroom mirror are less than impressive…please pick a different location to show off your latest hair style!

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Quote to ponder…

Quote to ponder….

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Blessings…

As I sit here drinking coffee, watching my son play on the floor, hubby sitting nearby, beautiful red Cardinal perched outside on the patio, I am reminded of the blessings of God.  My job is a stressful one, but one that I truly love. I must say that with the stress of the job many times I can get stuck looking at the negative and missing the blessings in front of me. Today, I am trying to take a moment to truly focus on the positives.  Yes, there are people in this world that drive us crazy, the economic situation of our country is a mess, but that being said, the world around us  still has so much beauty.  There are beautiful people in the world still too, and I do not mean in a Hollywood sense, by any means.  There are people that still hold the door open, allow you to go ahead of them in line, give you a smile, and on and on.  I have found that if I give positives I tend to get them back.  I am sure most of us already know that to be true, so it is not as if I am saying anything profound.  But, do we really stop and think about it?  When I leave the house I try to send positives into the world.  If I am going to wear a cross around my neck, then I should live by  His principles, right? People should see Him in me, right? 

In the scope of my job, I have tried to make sure I lead by His example. I have prayed for my staff, prayed for my school, prayed for my students, prayed for their parents. Many say that prayer in not allowed in schools, I disagree!  Prayer is alive and well.  It may not be directed over the PA system, but I can guarantee you prayer takes place in classrooms.  I pray on my way to work for guidance and to make the right decisions for the greater good of my school and community.  Do I fall short still?  Of course, after all, I am human and making mistakes still happens and always will, but I will not give up. 

I hear people comment about the demise of society, and I have even made the comment, but then again, I imagine everybody at some time or another felt the same way.  I do believe that we must focus on interacting with each other in a positive way, and become a blessing to the world. One person can make a difference, and I am determined to make a difference.

 I sent an email to my staff yesterday, simple telling them how hard I know they are working, and that while they are not always thanked for their hard work and sacrifice, I have noticed. I also asked them to lift one another up, because we had members of our community that were struggling personally.  I had no idea that my staff needed to hear that as much as they did.  I had responses from them saying “I needed that” and many more. We highly underestimate the power we have as individuals.

 Imagine if each person, or the majority of people had the attitude they are going to go out and be a blessing to the world?  Our world would begin to improve drastically!  So, let’s get out there and become a beauty and blessing to the world! That smile you give just may be the smile that keeps someone going!

 

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Struggle…

Here is my current struggle as a Christian…how to not let other people affect me.  I admittedly am an outgoing, yet shy person. Let me explain…when I am in my comfort zone…lookout, I am outgoing, funny and relaxed.  When I am out of my comfort zone, or in a setting where I do not know many people I am rather reserved.  Some people have seen my reserved side as even arrogant, which could not be further from the truth.  The struggle is that I am amazed at how many people in this world, who do not even really know me, can make snap judgments about me…or anyone for that matter.  I really am working hard to make sure that I am not judgmental.  I do not think you ever really KNOW someone, so I try to put myself in their place and think about why people are the way they are, and do the things they do.  So, I guess it is just frustrating when I think people are very quick to make judgments based upon little information, if any.

The struggle is that we are not supposed to even worry about what other people think, only focus on what we think God would want us to do.  This is my mission, but I must say, I still get bothered, no hurt, when people think they know me and they really do not.  It hurts when you are friendly to someone and you are met with less than friendly, if not downright rude. I don’t know maybe my issue is that I am too focused on other people and what they think? Who knows, but either way it is a struggle.  I wonder if this is a struggle that other people have?

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What is the right thing to do?

As I move through my journey to become a better person, which ultimately means become a better Christian, I must admit it can be a tough journey when faced with certain situations.  Case in point…I had a tough decision to make regarding hiring an individual…if I hired the individual I was going to put another supervisor in a bind by essential taking that person at the last moment.  They would have then had to hurry advertise and interview, with time being of the essence.  After much thought, yes, much thought, I decided against hiring the person…the reason?  I had to be able to sleep at night, and know that I could face that other supervisor knowing I did the right thing.  I even had a couple people say, “It happens all the time, you have to do what you have to do”. Well, I disagree.  Just because other people “do it all the time that way”, doesn’t make it right. 

I have to say, it would have been easier just to move forward and push down those feelings telling me “you are not doing the right thing”, but I did not.  I listened to those feelings and did the right thing. I also slept well that night!

Another situation I encountered the next day, I am shopping in a well-known store, and a lady was looking at some items on the shelf, and, yes, she had her cart blocking the entire aisle.  No one was getting by her!  I pulled up and waited for just a moment, knowing she had to have seen me out of the corner of her eye.  When I realized she either hadn’t noticed me or wasn’t going to notice me, I politely said, “may I get by you, please?” and the reason I am writing this is because, yes, you guessed it…she got an attitude. It was as if I had truly asked her to move the entire shelf of items so I could get by.  It was at that time, I really had to stop and think “what is the right thing to do?” I have a pretty quick tongue and I had a few statements to come back with, but I remembered…I wear a cross and I am a Christian. My handling of the situation was going to be a billboard of me as a person, and more importantly, of a person who wears a cross. So, I have to constantly ask myself, “What is the right thing to do?”  The answer is not always the easiest to answer…sometimes the right decisions are the hardest to make.

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The healthy part of my journey….going organic and natural

In my quest for self-improvement I am also working on getting healthier, and all that encompasses.  I have been doing a lot of healthy reading…magazines, research on the web, books, you name it I am definitely in healthy research mode…must be the educator in me.  I also know it has a lot to do with the birth of my son.  I want to be healthy for him!  I have got to stay active to keep up with my “little man”!  so, back to my healthy quest…

I attended a workshop on going organic…I could not believe my ears when the speaker told the audience that all breast cancer tumors have parabens in them…good grief!!!!  So, imagine my shock when I looked at some very famous baby lotions and found that they too had parabens in them.  Needless to say I was a little upset to think I had been lathering my precious son up with lotion daily and they all contained parabens. So, I guess you can say that I am making it a mission of mine to go paraben free!  Thankfully, it is getting easier to go paraben and sulfate free because more and more products are available. 

it may sound crazy but since I have been working on being healthier…supplements, natural skin care, natural hair conditioners, just to name a couple I truly feel better!  As a matter of fact, I am sitting with my all natural Moroccan clay mask-feels great, even though I look a little hilarious. My son must be getting used to seeing me wear masks because he looked at me and did not even bat an eye! 🙂 I just conditioned my hair with almond oil and peppermint oil-almond oil to condition and peppermint oil to stimulate the scalp.  I soak my hair with the mixture, then wrap my hair in a towel and leave it on for 30 minutes, then wash out.  My hair truly feels softer and looks better.  I would recommend giving it a try!  So, by the end of this evening I will have soft and silky hair, and fabulous looking skin, more toned with small pores…my goodness I sound like an infomercial! 🙂

More healthy tips to come and more stories as I continue this journey of getting healthier and becoming a new me…should be interesting!  If anyone out there has any fabulous healthy tips, whether eating or beauty please share!  This is a journey I can by no means make alone…lots of prayers, tips and ideas from other folks, and I am one day closer to a healthier, better me! 

Whew! I better get this mask off or I am going to be drawn a little too tight in the pores department…

 

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